November 2016 = Zombie

November 11, 2016

I had just picked you up from Aurora Hospital. You were there a little over 3 and a half weeks. You were in good spirits and I remember thinking as I drove there, maybe this is the last time, maybe they finally got his medication right. Little did I know, you’d be back a week later. 

When you jumped in the car the first thing you did was what you always did when you got in the car, you grabbed the auxiliary cord and plugged in your phone. It never mattered whose car you were in, you always controlled the music. 

I remember the conversation like it was yesterday….

Mom I have to play you this new song one of the nurses showed me. It’s such a good song mom, you’re going to love it. I think it just came out because I’ve never heard it. 

I started singing the song when it came on and your face turned to me and your eyes were so wide! 

        Zombie, zombie zomb e e e e eee! 

(Yes, Zombie by the Cranberries)

Mom!! How do you know this song???

Jacob that song came out before you were born! 

(He was always doing that with music and me though. I thought his eyes were going to pop out of his head gene he heard me playing Bodies) 

He was so impressed. I think he played it well over 5 times as we drove to go get lunch. 

I took you to Peter Piper Pizza, you were my kid who shared my love for that place. For the pizza, not the games. When we sat down you grabbed a slice, and you said, oh don’t let me forget to text Jack Happy Veterans Day. 

Who does that at 16? You! You did that because you were such a loving and caring kid. You thought about others and you loved to make them happy. 

I remember that night Jack saying, did you tell Jacob to text me today? 

No I did not, that was all him. He actually reminded me it was Veterans Day!! 

We miss you so much Jacob! 

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Author: LiveforJacob

My name is Angela and I’m Jacob’s mom. My son Jacob took his own life after battling depression for 2 years on April 9th 2018. Jacob wanted people to know that teen depression is real and to get help if they were struggling. He wanted to raise awareness and help others. He wanted people to live....#LiveforJacob. My blog is to help parents and teens as best as I can by sharing my experiences, sharing my stories, and being here for anyone who needs to reach out to me with questions or if you just need to vent. Let’s all remember to live our lives to the fullest, accomplish our goals and as always LIVE.....LiveforJacob!!!!

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